Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Friday, November 26, 2010
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Saturday, October 23, 2010
Mum : So your exam all over and how long is your holiday?
Me : Around 3 weekslo. This time the holiday very short only due to some stupid stuff at the uni.
Mum : Then you going to find work or anything?
Me : No, too short, lazy want to find, besides I need to finish up my thesis la
Dad : Finish up your thesis or find ******* ( He is referring to my dear)
Me : Ahhhh not going to find himla. He got class and besides no reason for me to find him mah.
Dad : Ya kah? I know he is your boyfriend kan? Kan?
Me : * In silent mode *
Mum : Haiyo don't talk bout it anymore. What you want to do just do. Just don't do anything ( she saying bout having sex and so on )
Dad : *Keeping silent as he is thinking something*
Sister : Aiyo don't bother him la, he still loves both of you whether he is gay or not, so just leave him, he is big enough to know which is right and wrong
Mum : Tomorrow come my place a while. I want to introduce someone to you.
Me : Who?? Another girl again? What for , I don't need any laaaaaa. I not interested in them also
Mum : They interested enough. I want to see you have generation.
Me : Not interested. End of question. If you force me I don't mind leaving the house after I grad.
Mum : * Not saying anything about it and change topic *
Even though they say like that, but from their tone I know they mean no harm and just want me to be back normal. I told them this is not a disease and just let me be but they still finding girls for me. Don't know for what. I know it sound absurd to them but I will be leaving them after I grad and staying with my dear. Just waiting for a nice timing to say so. Think will be end of this week as don't wish to delay anymore since they know my dear too. Wish me luck in persuading them ~~
Saturday, October 9, 2010
This is the Ice Lychee and carrot Juice with Salad ~~
This is the Shark Fin soup, It's little but it is tasty o ~~
This is mine Neptune Don't Know What Name Chicken Chop ~~
This is his Fish Fillet Chop ~~
This is the Seafood Platter, consists of fried fish fillet if i not mistaken, tiger prawns, fried squid, fried scallop and the fries. ~~
Overall the food here is rating 3/5 for us. We very picky in food neh ~~ If not nice sure ban the place haha. Well actually have more pic to put in but too lazy and tired. So going to sleep as tomorrow have to drive back to KL, he drive of course and we need a good long rest. So hope you all have a wonderful day today as well ~~~
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
P.S : Hate those kind of couples anyway, totally uncivilized and like baboon. ~~
Friday, September 10, 2010
As we know trust is the most important thing that help us to keep up a good relation not just with our loves one but everywhere we go; work, family and etc. Trust is the endearing faith and confidence that your partner will respect and he will show you his feeling of sincerity and genuine. But still we know trust is hard to develop as it is the hallmark for successful relationship and it can cause severe damage if not taken properly and can destroy everything in an instance. Like it take ages to build and maintain a good reputation but it only take seconds to destroy everything that was build.
So for those who would love to rebuild or have a better trust in the relationship, I think the tips are kinda useful ( quoted from somewhere )
1: Get a good handle on any projections that might be being triggered from the past; your boyfriend is not your ex or your father who may have hurt you before. Focus on the here-and-now and deal directly with this current reality and not those distractions that you’ll still need to grieve and complete.
2: You and your partner will need to communicate and listen to each other; make sure you know how to do this well and enlist the help of a trained therapist if needed. Difficult discussions abound and you each will need to be able to express and understand each other’s perspectives. You will also need to acknowledge and validate each other’s experiences of the problem and reach an understanding of how and why this happened, staying focused on the issue-at-hand.
3: You will each need to take responsibility for the roles you played in the indiscretion and be open to apologizing and forgiving each other.
4: In your problem-solving, you will need to create a new “relationship contract”, agreeing to behavior that’s fair vs. unjust and ensuring you each share these same definitions. Identify any unrealistic expectations to avoid any set-ups for sabotage. I personally think this works for some couples and it act like a legal papers ~~
5: Create a healing climate in your relationship. There is no room for competition, jealousy, blame, or defensiveness any more. Introduce more tenderness and attentiveness to each other’s needs. Demonstrate to each other consistently that you are each priorities to one another and remember that you get back what you put into your relationship (The Law of Attraction).
6: Learn to “let go” of any bitterness to allow each of you the opportunity to grow and change. Take an inventory of the positive memories, behaviors, interactions, and characteristics of your partner to keep you balanced and hopeful.
Wednesday, September 8, 2010
1 : Avoid placing emotional needs to your partner.
This should be our own individual self problem and development and shouldn't be taken out on to your partner.
2 : Never expect your partner to know your needs even though been together for a long time.
I think this is true as no matter how close or how well we know each other, we still can't read minds and thus we can't really know what he is thinking actually. So it would be wise to have a direct conversation and get what you need. It's advisable not to do mind guessing.
3 : Keep on having a 'check up' with your partner to reexamine the relationship and how satisfied are both of you. This can keep the communication open and renew the quality of the relationship. I think this is the part where everyone love to do.
4 : Avoid letting disagreement turn into an ugly verbal battle where everything bad things would be said that can cost the relationship. Of course no one's want to argue isn't it? So you and your partner should take time to sit down and discuss properly before any of you get hurts deeply.
5 : You can try to protect your relationship by bringing it to a higher level by legally getting some stuff done such as wills, or power of attorney as the plannings would be good enough to keep strong and prove the place in the relationship.
6 : Do not EVER let busyness take away of relationship. This is another main factor that always happen to couples as they can't spend time for each other. You and your partner should find some time adjusting balance between work, friends and family so that both of you can have a nice and peaceful quiet couple night. Perhaps having a Date Night every week if possible would be wonderful as we can see the commitment shown in you and your partner. Just remember the Date Night is the night where you both spend quality time together, not discussing anything related to problems and issues.
Actually there are more tips that can be taken into consideration but I guess this would be sufficient for now as these are the main things that if once a couple can overcome this problems, their relationship would be wonderful and will be living happily ever after. Who wouldn't want that kind of life? ~~
Thursday, September 2, 2010
To achieve the stimulation, prostate orgasm can be performed alone, by a professional, or with a partner (of course with partner right?).The most common and most effective way to perform prostate stimulation is through the anus. Traditionally, when a partner or spouse helped with the prostate orgasm stimulation, they used their finger.They would insert the finger into the anus and massage the prostate gland gently(better clean your butt butt first ya ). The prostate orgasm is achieved by massaging and squeezing the prostate gland in a downward motion. During a prostate orgasm, semen flows out rather than being squirted out (as in a regular ejaculation, perhaps you cant even feel the flow, just that it gives the best stimulation ever ).The problem with fingers is that they are usually about and inch or two too short to do the job well (guess your partner really have to locate it unless he has a long fingers to do so). It feels good, but, a finger doesn't usually reach to the top of the prostate gland and don't do an efficient job of milking the prostate gland (releasing the fluid).
Besides how many of us did prostate orgasms during sex and get totally stimulated from that? I experienced it before and it totally blew off your mind!! Just say by doing this can gives the best stimulation and you will shoot a volley of arrows and as far as throwing lancers seriously. So try this at home and enjoy the very best of it ~~
Monday, August 30, 2010
The second incident was a bit unbelieveable as it involves with the goddess. Actually the story is like this; my mum adopted a young boy to be our step brother and he was only 11 when he was diagnosed with leukemia and it's on the last stage. However he wasn't afraid of the death and devoted himself into Buddhism and pray frequently. My mum who is a religious freak ( sorry mum LOL ) been praying for him since then and hope he will be safe when he passed away. And the time when he passed away, something strange happen. ( This is also true story, up to you guys to believe or not ) My little step brother use to have a stench and funny kind of smell as he is sick and the smell wasn't that good either. However the time he passed away everything changed after we chanted for 8 hours. We all saw Kuan Yin, the Goddess of Mercy and the other god which name I don't know till now coming to him with an empty lotus flower beside them. And we saw him riding the lotus flower, smilling happily and waving goodbye and gone just like that. After that his body smell so nice just like perfume and the smell is so freaking nice LOL. It's so speechless seeing things like that just happen before your eyes and it makes you to believe in every possibilities. So, did you guys ever encounter anything like that before?
Thursday, August 26, 2010
The Ghost Festival also known as the Hungry Ghost Festival is a traditional Chinese festival and holiday celebrated by Chinese in many countries. In the Chinese calendar (a lunisolar calendar), the Ghost Festival is on the 15th night of the seventh lunar month. In Chinese tradition, the fifteenth day of the seventh month in the lunar calendar is called Ghost Day and the seventh month in general is regarded as the Ghost Month (鬼月), in which ghosts and spirits, including those of the deceased ancestors, come out from the lower realm. Distinct from both the Qingming Festival (in Spring) and Chung Yeung Festival (in Autumn) in which living descendants pay homage to their deceased ancestors, on Ghost Day, the deceased are believed to visit the living.
Zhong Kui, the vanquisher of ghosts and evil beings
On the fifteenth day the realms of Heaven and Hell and the realm of the living are open and both Taoists and Buddhists would perform rituals to transmute and absolve the sufferings of the deceased. Intrinsic to the Ghost Month is ancestor worship, where traditionally the filial piety of descendants extends to their ancestors even after their deaths. Activities during the month would include preparing ritualistic food offerings, burning incense, and burning joss paper, a papier-mache form of material items such as clothes, gold and other fine goods for the visiting spirits of the ancestors. Elaborate meals (often vegetarian meals) would be served with empty seats for each of the deceased in the family treating the deceased as if they are still living. Ancestor worship is what distinguishes Qingming Festival from Ghost Festival because the latter includes paying respects to all deceased, including the same and younger generations, while the former only includes older generations. Other festivities may include, buying and releasing miniature paper boats and lanterns on water, which signifies giving directions to the lost ghosts and spirits of the ancestors and other deities.
A female ghost in China
Bai Qiulian( this is her name, pretty name and pic or not you think? LOL)
Thursday, August 19, 2010
“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.” I quoted this to you dear and wished all the best for both of us and every other couple's out there as this should be the way love is~~
Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Anyhow , I come back home today as my dad wants to meet me to discuss something ( actually he is angry as I am not at home ) and have to part with him. But will be meeting him on Sat to catch up the last unseen movie with him and his friends and then have to back to Uni liao. It doesn't matter as we make full use of our time enjoying ourselves and I promise to be the best and special for you ya dear!!! Love You and XOXO ~~
Monday, August 9, 2010
Dad : Eh, today the postman delivered a package for you. You know what's the package is about?
Me : Of course I don't know a. What package is that? Who send it?
Dad : Wait I opened and let you know. (After a while he said ). It wrote from **************** and what is this??!! You bought gay cd's?
Me : Ah ( Kantoi already ), well it's a long time book and I have no idea they send it now.
Dad : Oh, so what you going to do with it? You going throw away or you want me to keep it and pass it back to you next week?
Me : No need, just leave it in the cupboard !!!. Besides, mummy know or not about the cd?
Dad : Of course not. She will break it and will get mad if saw that cd. You next week better come back and hide it. And you owe me ok son?
Me : Yes, dad ( He is going to ask me do stuff for him liao, sob )
But still lucky my mum did not saw the cd, if not I surely going to have hours of lectures from her again. Haha dad, I love you ~~ Same to you mummy even though you hate me being a gay ><.
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Some of our nonsensical pictures
Of course there are more but lazy to upload more ~~ Btw will be going Johor to celebrate friends birthday so will be blogging when I get back~~ Adios to everyone and good luck ^^
Friday, July 30, 2010
Saturday, July 24, 2010
Yesterday I even hang out with my high school senior and the first thing she asked me was ' What happen to you? Why do you become like this? It's such a waste !!!'. Of course at first I wouldn't know what she mean but when I turned and say my sister giving her evil smile, I knew she told my senior !!. Well it wasn't really a big stuff but I was given lectures for few hours and which lead me to think back for real. I know it sound absurd but sometimes I do consider myself in the ' confusion + disappointment' case for being a gay guy. I watched handsome and great guys in awe, admire them and even think * XXX * ( LOL, joking ) with them but those that make me a gay guy? What if my senior is right about the confusion and disappointment? Can I really be back into a normal and straight guy? I am certain no one would want to be a gay person in the first place right? Well, I guess we have to let time do their job again ain't it?
Sunday, July 11, 2010
Friday, July 9, 2010
Me : Mum, if next time I die hor, I wanna be organ donor ~~
Mum: * Drop the plate for a moment * " Har? You serious? "
Me : " Ya, why not, nothing wrong what, some more can save people life mah "
Mum : " Eh don't la, you know or when after we die this will happen ...................... ( my mum starts talking about the Buddhism stuff about after life to me as she is very religous )
Me : " I don't care, die mah die lo, if can help people then I will do so. Take me register next week when I back from Uni "
Mum : * Speechless*
Muahaha I win my mum in this matter. Actually it's not a bad idea right? There are so many people who are in need for organs and I just doing what I can do to ease their pain and suffering. Even Snow agree with me by wagging his tail and snuggle into me~~ !!!
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Whenever there are news about anyone passed away, I will have a memory about something that happen to me when I was only 8 years old. I always get upset about this matter and guess nothing can take my guilt away.
I had a good neighbour which treated my family well when I was a kid. The neighbour has 2 sisters and one of them treat me just like her little brother and the other one just brush me off. So I will named the nice sister as Sister J and the bad sister Sister K. Sister J and I had a very close relation as she does not have a little brother and my sister doesn't really bothering me that much and probably that is the reason why both of us get so close. Everyday she would take me to school, waited me to finish my class and hold my hand to cross the road, treat me foods and drinks that I liked, bring me to the park and so much more. However this does not last long for HER as she is involved in a road accident because of ME.
That evening I was just coming back from school and while I am in the bus, I drew a picture of Sister J and me holding hands and smiling happily. By the time I finished drawing, the bus was in front of my house and there is she, waiting for me to take me back home. I was eager and did not pack my crayons properly and while we were crossing the road, my crayons fell off and rolled over to the middle of the road. She asked me to wait for her when she helped me to take those crayons and that is when all goes wrong. She managed to pick the crayons up and was walking back to me when a BUS hit her and run just like that. I was totally shaken, shocked and stunned watching her get hit and bleeding all over. I still remembered that people are screaming for help and she still managed to pass me those crayons with a SMILE and that is when she said, " Don't cry Danny Boy, it's ok. Sis is going first and will protect you from up there. Be strong and I will be happy to know that you are safe".
That is when her family came and started shouting and scolding me. I just stood there like a retard and my parents was like " Calm down boy, calm down, sis is going to be just fine". When we reached at the hospital, everything was too late and the sis's mum was scolding at me saying I am the black sheep and disgrace to people. She keep on screaming at me, cursing me non stop which make me feel more guilty. I told Aunt S that I am so sorry and saying it's truly my fault while my parents defended for me. What I remember after that was the whole week was havoc as both of our family waged war and in the end, I told my parents, ' Let's move ' and we moved. Aunt S never even let me give my final respect to her saying I will dirty her and so on which I don't even bother listening. But for my whole life, I have been in guilty and the feeling will be triggered when I read or see something in common. If only I am not careless, Sister J probably had grown up into a beautiful lady with an angel like smile and have a good , warming family. I will never be able to forgive myself even though she said that everything is ok. Will I be able to let go of myself from this guilt? Perhaps or not...
Monday, July 5, 2010
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Mum :" Why do you want to be a gay? Outside there no more pretty girls? "
Me : " This is me. I am just like this, it's not a matter that if I want to change I could. And besides I am happy with myself and my life right now. "
Mum : Don't you know getting in a relationship with a guy you can have all those disgusting disease like AIDS? Next time when you get old with those disease who is going to help you? "
Me : So you mean if I get together with a girl I won't get AIDS? Besides I am not that stupid to not using protection when having sex."
Mum : " Still I find it totally wrong and songsang. Guys should be with girls , not same sex. "
Me: " *Speechless for a while*. This is my life ma, and I know how hard for you to accept who am I. But what I can say is that currently I am happy with my life and I find no regrets. Just let me be who I am can? "
Mum : " I don't care, I will find you some girls. You are not ugly and in fact good looking, so it wouldn't be a matter to find some. Talk to you next day "
Me : * Totally speechless*
This was my conversation between my mum and me. Whenever both of us are alone, she will bring up the matter and try to adjust me ( her say ) which is so irritating.
On my dad side, he wasn't that conservative and old minded. He just tell me " It's your life and you choose the path, I can't stop you. But don't bring your bf back home" ( My dad is funny haha ).
Well, I know both of them are kinda disappointing as one of their child is a gay, but Dad and Ma, no matter what I still love both of you regardless of everything that happen.
Friday, July 2, 2010
Happy Anniversary Dear ~~ Love You ~~
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Right now, my uni is in a total hell and mess which makes me just wanna finish up my studies asap but guess everything has it's flow isn't it ? Going to get my thesis title this Thursday and start researching ~~. Bye for now, onlining using the worst ever siput connection at uni make the day worse.
P.S : Dear, wait for me during September holiday break, want come over and spend holiday time with you ~~ love U~~
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Well I don''t really bother about the area as the Chinese population is much more than Shah Alam but the least thing I don't really like is staying with my bro. I can't really imagining living with my bro in a same rental house and there would be some other housemates that I totally have no idea who they are. Besides it would be like total no privacy for me to communicate with my dear and my bro will surely make a big trouble out of it. There is a guy in the house who is a gay too but out of all sudden, he told me not to talk to him anymore which I have no clue at all and this time staying with them would be total awkward. I don't really know how to describe my feelings right now, just hope everything goes well by then.
P.S, Miss my dear so much, no words can describe how much I miss You~ Love You ~
Monday, June 14, 2010
Sunday, May 30, 2010
I Love Him...
Friday, May 28, 2010
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Most people would rather be certain they're miserable, than risk being happy. ~Robert Anthony
The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up. ~Mark Twain
Those who can laugh without cause have either found the true meaning of happiness or have gone stark raving mad. ~Norm Papernick
People take different roads seeking fulfillment and happiness. Just because they're not on your road doesn't mean they've gotten lost. ~H. Jackson Browne
~~This is a reminder for me of course~~
Monday, May 17, 2010
P.S : I hurt my hand when taking hot water just now, it's hurt but hope it won't give me trouble tomorrow
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Friday, May 7, 2010
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Monday, May 3, 2010
Friday, April 30, 2010
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
My finals will be next week and I really want to score high this time but with this problem still bothering me it will not be easy. So there will be only 2 option ( for now ) ; first, contact him and settle it with him once for all and secondly, take it easy with the flow and wait for his answer. Which option should i decide? Any advices on this?
Monday, April 26, 2010
Saturday, April 24, 2010
Video of my Bff's performance ^^
After the event