Bad Luck?

Well as a start i would just like to say I had a damn horrible year. I always thought the number 7 would be a lucky number for me as I had always run into fortune whenever this number cross by. But this year on the JULY month, its been a worst month for me. I nearly cant took my exam because of the stupid management provided by my Uni, I broke up ( Yeah, i broke up, so great isnt it?), my beloved car broke down and I need to fish out another RM1k for the repair cost and many more that I lazy to post it over here. I really have no idea what is going on with me and if this is going to continue till end of the year, I prefer to die(LOL just jk). I wish lady luck wiill be with me starting from this month and I hope there wouldnt be any misfortune again.

P.S : Meet a guy on the last day of my misfortune month and he is really nice. Can i request for more?

3 July

This is the date that i be with him. Of course i am referring to my beloved darling whom i know from Facebook. I added him from that social network quite a time but didnt have the oppurtinity to chat with him until a few days before the date stated. He was down that time as he broke up with his bf and as a friend i just console him and that is when our love spark. He is from Sarawak and i am from KL and when i put my relationship status with him, its like an uproar between my family and friends. They said i havent meet the guy and what we are is only a mere affection. Well i understand that but i hope we can last forever as both of us are deeply in love for now. So far he had been treating me good in my point of view and there isnt any problem yet. Haha maybe i am naive but of course everyone want to have a long lasting relation rite? I am trying my best to make him feel happy and of course i am flying over there to meet him up. Hehe i am going to give him suprises when i get there ^_^. By then adios. Good luck to me ~~

Stupid Uni

I already fed up talking about this matter to everyone. The uni management is so horrible till I want to puke and even slap those bitches. This stupid uni make me and my coursemates fail to get our loan and then yet expect us to fish out our own cash to pay the fees. Those bitches even told me that if I failed to pay before the due date I cant sit for exam. What the HELL??!! I wonder where all those moneys those students paid and what did the uni do with it. They cant even explain properly to us about the system that they are working and the still blaming us. Just want to give a big slap on their faces. So now I have no option but have to ask my beloved dad for the money LOL to pay this semester fees. Hope he wont be furious ^_^.And this is my 1 sincere word to the MOST GREATEST UNI at Shah Alam * YOU GUYS CAN KISS MY ARSE DUMB PIGS*

Should I or not?

After all those falls i had, i dont really have the interest to date or being in a relationship anymore. But last month i known a guy and i started to chat with him like always as a friend. I wouldnt want to put any hope or dream of anything with him but the more i chat with him the more attracted i get to him. I dont know why i can get attracted to him and as always when i thought there is something good is going to happen, that is when everything went wrong AGAIN. The guy asked me to borrow him few hundred ringgit and he told me the reason why he needed it. Its not that i dont want to help him but its that we just know for few months and we havent even met. So how is there possible to help him? This is what a normal person would do. But I being as dumb as ever agree and borrow him and I get scolding from my friends who know about it. Havent know a person and borrow few hundreds to him.. is it worth for a friendship or maybe love?

Its quite a long time

Its been a long time since i write something here. Basically too busy till i forgotten i had a blog here and i just cant push myself to write here. Everything is fine except for my love life only. I am too soft to be in this circle i guess.. Or maybe i just being a dum dum like my friends said.. being too nice is sometimes will be sickening. For the past months i meet quite a lot of people and i hope can find a truly understandable but mostly all are crocodiles. Either trying to get their hands on your pants or someway around but for sure they are suckers. All of this happen because of u...I try to let go but it seems you are the cause of my fall.......

Nonsense is THE KING

Ai... this days full with many craps and nonsense. I get to know few persons who manage to talk heart to heart but yet full with nonsense. Even in my world nobody truly understand and try to communicate. All only know how to take advantage and throw u away like stray dog after no value. FUCK THOSE PEOPLE~!! Truly have no sense of guilt in their mind and heart. Where the HELL all the good persons ever go? Even if wanna use or play other people feelings DUN EVER get committed. HATE U FOREVER !!

Nothing much ~~

Aiseh this days really very busy. Assignment flooding like nobody business, need to look after my crappy puppy somemore @@ and my beloved frens who have problems. Omg omg so many things to do and exam also around the corner. Guess will stop here for the time being :( back to my books ~~

Does People Deserve Second Chance?

Rihanna -Hatin On The CLub

Now this be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car yall, kissing at the bar
Got me cryyyinng.

Whoahhh, you got me hatin' on the club'
Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club'
Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahh

And you can be mad at me all you want
I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love went

I Stayed at home like them good girls do
Now ya got out here all sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car,yall kissing at the bar
Got me crying

Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club'
Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
And got me like whoahhh
You got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahh

This is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love
We would still have us
I'd still have my love
We would still have us

Now, now I'm like whoahhhh

Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Oh you took my love

You gotta her hatin em
oh, you gotta her hatin on em
you gotta hatin her em
oh, you gotta her hatin on em
You gotta her hatin em
oh, you gotta her hatin on da club, club, club, clubbbb

This song really reminds me of how ppl easily can hurt each other but then get back togehter so easily as if nothing ever happen. Is it no more true feelings or love around anymore? Does people really deserve a second chance after thier doing? Gosh i am crapping here ~~

This Song make me Emo

There's nothing I could say to you
Nothing I could ever do to make you see
What you mean to me

All the pain, the tears I cried
Still you never said goodbye and now I know
How far you'd go

I know I let you down
But it's not like that now
This time I'll never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I thought that I had everything
I didn't know what life could bring
But now I see, honestly

You're the one thing I got right
The only one I let inside
Now I can breathe, cause you're here with me

And if I let you down
I'll turn it all around
Cause I would never let you go

I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life, I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

Cause without you I cant sleep
I'm not gonna ever, ever let you leave
You're all I've got, you're all I want
Yeah

Cuz without you I don't know what I'd do
I can never, ever live a day without you
Here with me, do you see,
You're all I need

And I will be, all that you want
And get myself together
Cause you keep me from falling apart

All my life (my life), I'll be with you forever
To get you through the day
And make everything okay

I really keep thinking of him when listening to this song make me so much peaceful but deep down there is a hurting feeling.. Let it go bah @@

Headache ~~~

Ahaha ntgh to do so just drop by ~~ Holiday starts lo but yet my life feel no different. Holiday also still have so bloody many assignment to do as well as project. Speaking of homeowork is really pissing me off especially my genetic course required us to find herbs. WTH i need to do those beautiful plants.. Luckily there is always a person beside me cheering me up and giving me encouragement. Haha dont know wat am i mumbling here... Anyway thats all for today.. need to go back to my works.. Adios ^_^

Patience is Virtue~~

How to start off? Well i and this person have been developing and we even know each other feelings but everyone has their problem and he is not excluded. Because of the past both of us think its best to just remain like this and given each other for another 2 years.. Its not a short time or long time but in 2 years anything can happen... Well for now just hope everything will be all well end well and hope my patience's is rewarded..

Its just normal??

I know this guy from net and we chatted last 2 days through phone and i really feel happy chatting with him as he is also the type that gila-gila and open minded just like me ( Complimenting myself ). Maybe its just a mere affection but he called me and talk to me for hours and but yet he told me he do this to all his friends. Not to say i dont believe but its doesnt seem normal for you to know a person and on the first day of chatting it lasted for hours. Personally deep down i think maybe i have some feelings but for now just let it be bah .. Haha .. Let us leave it to our best friend, the time to do the work... Adios ~~

Beyonce-Halo

Remember those walls i built
Well baby they are turning down
And they didn`t even put up a fight
They didn`t even make a sound
I found a way to let you in
But i never really had a doubt
Standing in the light of your halo
I got my angel now
It`s like i`ve been awaken
Every rule i had to break
It`s the risk that i`m taking
I ain`t never gonna shut you out

Everywhere i`m looking now
I`m surrounded by your embrace
Baby i can see your halo
You know you`re my saving grace
You`re everything i need and more
It`s written all over your face
Baby i can feel your halo
Pray won`t fade away

I can do your halo
I can see your halo
Ican be your halo
I can see your halo

Hit me like a ray of sun
Burning through my darkness night
You`re the only one that i want
You got addicted to your lie
I swore i`d never fall again
But this don`t even feel like falling
Gravity camed again
To pull me back to the ground again

It`s like i`ve been awaken
Every rule i had to break
It`s the risk that i`m taking
I`m never gonna shut you out

Everywhere i`m looking now
I`m surrounded by your embrace
Baby i can see your halo
You know you`re my saving grace
You`re everything i need and more
It`s written all over your face
Baby i can feel your halo
Pray won`t fade away

I can do your halo
I can see your halo
I can be your halo
I can see your halo

This is for you Des ~~

Sad Suprise ~~

Hmm dont know what to say ... As usual my life go on and during my break time i kena shock from my coursemate.. She confessed to me and i was like OMG why you? Deep down i feel happy but sad at least got ppl treasure me but the problem is i am into guys. Why only gals attracted to me?I just feel i will break her heart more as she know i am not straight. Why only gals treasure friends and relationship more than guys? Its a Q that cannot be answer forever i think ......

So Tired

Ah anyway this my second post ~~ But just come back from class and so damm tired ... Somemore today afternoon something happen that recall me and him ... so pointless.. broke up long time le but dont know why still can think about him.. Is there no end of it??

Ah.. My very first Blog ~~

This is my first time doing this and i dont even know why am i doing this. Always heard ppl have blog and i will laugh quietly but lately i sense its like a way to express own feelings. Well try not to talk many here just hope everything will end well ^_^